Heavier Things

So I saw my new doctor today for a check up.  I had an extremely high blood pressure(140/101) but I think that goes with all my stress as of late.  She is going to check my thyroid and my liver and kidneys with a fasting blood test.  I have to check and see if I can do it Monday morning.  She didn’t want to put me on anything yet for my crazy moods swings and feelings.  (I fluctuate between crying and mad and happy) yet.  She said I’m still in an adjustment stage, but we’ll see how things progress over the next couple of months.

In the mean time, I haven’t really updated here.  It’s been a little crazy.

But.I.Am.Tired.So.Tired.

I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders and all I get is lip service.  And let me tell you.

I.HATE.Lip Service.With a PASSION.SERIOUSLY.

All you got to do is tell me you can’t do something.  Don’t hide behind bullshit.  Because that is exactly what you are doing.  (and you knows exactly who you are.)  I don’t like being the sole person responsible for things.  It’s not fair to me.  What happened to the days of the knight in shining armor?  Granted, that’s not exactly what I want, I just want a little help.  I just want to understand.

But now days I don’t even get that.  I get the lip service.

And right now, I really want to rip those lips off and shove them where the sun doesn’t shine.

Yeah, I’m angry.  Can you tell?

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